Hey there! Im not feeling too good right now lol. I was happy yesterday, but it's the exact reverse today. I should stop hallucinating and dipping into the past; it's time to come back to the present and move on. This fleeting dream has ended. Feeling really emo right now dammit -.- i knew i shouldnt pin any hopes on it anymore. What's impossible is impossible. Soon i will realize that i dont need her and she doesnt need me. Maybe she already doesnt. I dont know. Just wondering how long it will take, and how long this effed up pain will last. Im eager to show the world that i have changed. Im keen to continue improving myself and not do things which i will regret. I really want to prove to her that im no longer the guy i used to be and im the right guy for her. But that will never happen i guess. I will never be given the chance to do so. It wouldnt, it will not, it never will. Seems like the only way i can obtain salvation is by letting go and stepping into the future bravely, and without any burden. That, i aspire to do LOL but for now it's emo emo emo... RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH RUBBISH!!!!! i hate my life. i hate myself. i dont know what to do with myself. nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. OKAY. MOVE ON MATTHEW ROY KOK HOONG JIA LOL! YES I CAN DO IT HAHAHA!!!!!